stormdracona | Back from the viewing..

....I don't know what to say....I'm just...numb...an I can feel everything crumbling. I nearly starting sobbing in there...But I was just quiet, looking at her. They did something, got rid of all her wrinkles an had her smile odd...But otherwise she looked asleep. They at first forgot her necklace(That thing is precious, an emerald, saphire, 2 amythests, diamond, opal. Each is her grandchildrens birthstone. I'm opal) but she has it on now...

I kinda just sit here numb at my computer...Not sure of anything. I want to lay down an cry, want to do just something. She looked asleep, I was waiting for her to wake up I think as I looked at her. When I had to leave, I found myself crying because I didn't want to. I kept thinking she'd wake up. But I left knowing she was truelly gone. Her casket was a simple rich yet 'plain' green. With white insides. Very simple, but beautiful nonetheless. Matched her I think.

I held that angel throughout the whole time as I looked at her. God I miss her, an I just can't...I don't know what I can or can't do. My brains not working at the moment. But she looked peacful, restful then how I last saw her.

This is also the first time I've seen several relatives cry.

OK I'm off I'm not making sense. But I managed to say goodbye and I love you to her. Though I don't know if she heard.