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stormdraconaPonderings, lots and lots of ponderings...
Everybody at schools already ALREADY getting ready for graduation(Since they probably won't fully remember during the summer >.>; ) they're trying to pick out teachers to talk about them, an make pages for the year book. Which made me start thinking. I graduate in a year, 2007. Which deep down I know is so close yet also so far away. But this year is zipping by faster and faster...I remember sitting in my homeroom and suddenly thinking "Man...I'm going to miss this..." I want out of that school yes, if just because of several asshole students...but I also love it deep down. Anyways.
Talked for awhile with mom, and really sat an thought. I already know of some pictures actually. One of Damien an Casp parked like a V an me standing between them, another of Damien T-Tops down an me standing inside with my arms on the windshield. A picture close to the family.
Me..probably I think 1? 2? holding my little sister I was a toddler she was a newborn we were on the bed an she was in my lap I was pretty much holding her by myself there. Its a picture my mom wants to take to the grave :) An a pic of me an my dad at the drags, for once in a blue moon we were BOTH smiling genuinely. And we had sunset lighting on us, it was nice. Gotta think of one for mom...
But I figured out who I want to have as my speech person, mom helped me decide. He's new, but thats what surprised mom. According to her, an he does this with several other students, he just has this talent for reading people. So deep down I figure he'd be a great person to have do the speech(plus according to mom at the parent teacher conference, he loves me :P) He's cool I like him, even though he is alittle...uh..wacky. I think he lost a few screws along the way but he's cool :) He has a great sense of humor(an a good portion of the time me an him double team on people an attack them with humorous stuff XD)
Man, just thinking about it makes me think, about a whole lot more.I have plans an am ready to start trying...but I realize I never took the time as I grew to actaully take advantage of being a kid. Just now I'm trying to get out an do stuff. I can count how many times I've had friends visit my house on 2 hands >.>; So now with my parents allowance I told them plainly "I'm sorry but for once, I'm GOING to do this. Even if I have to do it all on my own." Something simple but they're going to let me. So while I still have the chance, I'm going to at least make something out of what time I have left as a kid before I graduate an suddenly am 'an adult' or whatever.
Hard to believe I'm actually deep down sorta scared I've been preparing myself for so long for it, now its so close...I dunno.
Everybody at schools already ALREADY getting ready for graduation(Since they probably won't fully remember during the summer >.>; ) they're trying to pick out teachers to talk about them, an make pages for the year book. Which made me start thinking. I graduate in a year, 2007. Which deep down I know is so close yet also so far away. But this year is zipping by faster and faster...I remember sitting in my homeroom and suddenly thinking "Man...I'm going to miss this..." I want out of that school yes, if just because of several asshole students...but I also love it deep down. Anyways.
Talked for awhile with mom, and really sat an thought. I already know of some pictures actually. One of Damien an Casp parked like a V an me standing between them, another of Damien T-Tops down an me standing inside with my arms on the windshield. A picture close to the family.
Me..probably I think 1? 2? holding my little sister I was a toddler she was a newborn we were on the bed an she was in my lap I was pretty much holding her by myself there. Its a picture my mom wants to take to the grave :) An a pic of me an my dad at the drags, for once in a blue moon we were BOTH smiling genuinely. And we had sunset lighting on us, it was nice. Gotta think of one for mom...
But I figured out who I want to have as my speech person, mom helped me decide. He's new, but thats what surprised mom. According to her, an he does this with several other students, he just has this talent for reading people. So deep down I figure he'd be a great person to have do the speech(plus according to mom at the parent teacher conference, he loves me :P) He's cool I like him, even though he is alittle...uh..wacky. I think he lost a few screws along the way but he's cool :) He has a great sense of humor(an a good portion of the time me an him double team on people an attack them with humorous stuff XD)
Man, just thinking about it makes me think, about a whole lot more.I have plans an am ready to start trying...but I realize I never took the time as I grew to actaully take advantage of being a kid. Just now I'm trying to get out an do stuff. I can count how many times I've had friends visit my house on 2 hands >.>; So now with my parents allowance I told them plainly "I'm sorry but for once, I'm GOING to do this. Even if I have to do it all on my own." Something simple but they're going to let me. So while I still have the chance, I'm going to at least make something out of what time I have left as a kid before I graduate an suddenly am 'an adult' or whatever.
Hard to believe I'm actually deep down sorta scared I've been preparing myself for so long for it, now its so close...I dunno.
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Date: 2006-03-17 09:22 pm (UTC)It certainly does not have to end at 17, and it certainly does not happen suddenly or when you graduate.
Try never to stop enjoying life, there is always room for fun and games, and there should always be time to 'get out and do stuff'. I know someone tried to show you that recently, but you took the 'stay in and do nothing' choice mostly.
It's your life, enjoy it!!
;-)
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Date: 2006-03-17 11:47 pm (UTC)I'm trying ;P
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Date: 2006-03-18 01:15 am (UTC)'Very trying' is what I heard ~sniggers~
Nah, just kidding, I am glad that you health is improving, and I hope you get to grips with that sugar problem soon. I guess if you cannot beat it, then you just need to be prepared for it and know how to deal with it.
I always find that there are people who 'can do' and people who 'cannot do'. These people are not differentiated by health, money, age, sex, race or disability. They are differentiated by attitude, and the 'can do' people invariably overcome the obstacles and DO!! The 'can't do' people look for possible reasons not to, and use them as obstacles, justify them as reasons, and invariably DONT DO.
It's amazing what 'can do' people can do.
Be one!! (that applies to everybody who reads this)
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Date: 2006-03-19 12:28 pm (UTC)Hiding away and trying, will only bring you failure. And all you do is try, not DO. A very lazy attitude for someone who says they want to go do stuff.
This is all I have to say.
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Date: 2006-03-19 12:42 pm (UTC)Which it has, yes. But I realize why I hid, and now I'm trying to overcome it(My own fears an anxiety) so I'm actaully going, screw trying, to Mechacon at least babysteps.
~nods~
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Date: 2006-03-18 01:49 am (UTC)It feels like yesterday when I started high school ~sigh~