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Apr. 14th, 2011 12:31 pmSo...I'm exhasted. Every two hours my grandmother needs me (Yes this includes at night/early morning) this also includes me taking care of critters, cleaning, cooking, packing.
Plus side being up at 4am if I stay up an work come 6ish she needs help again, then I can work until 8, then after she's settled maybe catch a half hour snooze. So to put it mildly I'm running on very little to no sleep, an the fact I've walked into a closed door I thought was ajar to be pushed open /twice/ an gave myself a bloody nose the second time (nothin major...third times the charm me thinks) but I'm just eh about it. Dinner last night was interesting I don't remember cooking. I do remember being startled by burning my thumb however :P
I'm only getting claustraphobic is all. Due to how much of as my dad so elequintly put it to the social worker who's supposed to get me assitance to give me a break- "She's on a short choke chain" Which is true, max half hour gone from the house, if I push 45 minutes grandma starts getting panicky. Plus side if the worker manages what she's gunna try an push for (no high hopes due to how much grandma gets paid by retirement) I may be copensated by her health care an get paid for a certain amount of hours a month.
An trying to figure out dinner ideas when your this exhasted and don't want to eat sucks. Cuz everything doesnt sound good or makes you nauseated.
I really don't think I'm going to be able to do anything I planned for this month or come end of May...The two events I look forward to in a year I know is probably not gunna work. I might make Ren Faire is Dorothy can watch grandma for a few hours. But Botcon? Its aways away but unless grandma really improves I don't know how I'm going ot manage it....good thing I missed out on the big package I guess.
Okay random update is done. Gunna try an catch a nap(probably gunna fail for some reason I'm getting called like no ones buisness an people keeping coming to the door. Ugh.)
Plus side being up at 4am if I stay up an work come 6ish she needs help again, then I can work until 8, then after she's settled maybe catch a half hour snooze. So to put it mildly I'm running on very little to no sleep, an the fact I've walked into a closed door I thought was ajar to be pushed open /twice/ an gave myself a bloody nose the second time (nothin major...third times the charm me thinks) but I'm just eh about it. Dinner last night was interesting I don't remember cooking. I do remember being startled by burning my thumb however :P
I'm only getting claustraphobic is all. Due to how much of as my dad so elequintly put it to the social worker who's supposed to get me assitance to give me a break- "She's on a short choke chain" Which is true, max half hour gone from the house, if I push 45 minutes grandma starts getting panicky. Plus side if the worker manages what she's gunna try an push for (no high hopes due to how much grandma gets paid by retirement) I may be copensated by her health care an get paid for a certain amount of hours a month.
An trying to figure out dinner ideas when your this exhasted and don't want to eat sucks. Cuz everything doesnt sound good or makes you nauseated.
I really don't think I'm going to be able to do anything I planned for this month or come end of May...The two events I look forward to in a year I know is probably not gunna work. I might make Ren Faire is Dorothy can watch grandma for a few hours. But Botcon? Its aways away but unless grandma really improves I don't know how I'm going ot manage it....good thing I missed out on the big package I guess.
Okay random update is done. Gunna try an catch a nap(probably gunna fail for some reason I'm getting called like no ones buisness an people keeping coming to the door. Ugh.)
