Ppppbbbft.

So I got under...half hour to finish getting ready an drive my 'I have no stomach just a hole self' to Upland an proceed to see if Scarlets the horse today thats going to beat my sorry rear.

Oh dear god I hope its not Blue o.o;; But I'm sorry to my flist about how negative my posts are yes I'm in pain and depressed but I still have my happier/feel good moments. Just don't get a chance to wwrite about them because I'm taking advantage of the moment an when I do write the pain comes back. Just thought I'd let ya guys know that. I do feel shitty but life goes on an personally I'm not going to sit on the ground for nothin ;P

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I have decided forcing yourself into a more positive mood does wonders even though I almost couldn't ride because I hurt x.x

Good things of the day:
-After only two lessons, this being my first teaching of posting I've apparently got good rythm and actually can post already.
-Got to meet Winci the miniture horse an her 12 day old baby Twinkle.(TWINKLE IS SO GODDAMNED CUTE!)
-My efforts to fix my posture off of the horse made a HUGE difference and I didn't get told not to slump I sat nice an straight.

The iffys:
-Right knee has trouble positioning itself so I can squeeze and/or turn my heel in and hold it as such(act as a 'wall' so Scarlet doesn't take advantage of the opening sneaky girl) and the western saddle because of how short my legs are the stirrups are right at the fenders so turning my heel is extremely hard. My left knees stronger and can handle it.

-I have a headache.
-I know tommorow from posting for the first time I'm going to hurt, or I'll start feeling it tonight either one.