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Jan. 16th, 2006 08:11 pmI am so strung out now its ridiculous. I started to try an do some stuff on my room and just gave up. No more will. All I do is fight one medical battle after another, do the 'mind over body' mindset. But in the end deh Storm gets chiseled away. She's mentally tired, physically the stress is starting to kick in and knot her up.
She hasn't been sleeping good. Ever been afraid if you go to sleep that you'll die? Guess what I've been feeling that every night I go to sleep since the night I BARELY woke up when I had a shock attack. I almost didn't make it to the kitchen by the time I realized what was happening. Point of black out. Had I not woken up? I never would have. Again. None of my friends understand why I'm so strung out. Unlike my other 'battles' I at least had SOME sort of grip that I wasn't totally helpless. This. I am, and like anyone Storm does NOT like it. CT scan showed nothing, but I still may have smaller then view for CT scan insulinomas.
So Dr. Griffith gets a call, gets the story. He can't do shit I go to USC and have some tests done by order of Dr. McClogan(in which I may be in the hospital for a few days >.<) An get ANOTHER doctor probably. Why do I have to have so many doctors? I do more healthy stuff then half the people in my school! I don't have the mentality to give up. Maybe lay down for abit beaten but thats about it. But if it keeps up with running around in circles I just may.
These shock attacks hurt, and anything that touchs during a shock attack hurts(doing the finger prick thing for blood draw feels like your getting stabbed)
I'm strung out, stressed and depressed. An wishing someones that aren't alive right now I could talk to(I dun wanna stress my mom more then she is. We were crying on the way home as it was.)
Casp is home, turns out All car put dust covers on that were rubing the tires all fixed. An Mathiue[sp] rules. He did an abit over an hours labor for free.(Took apart the front end, took the dust covers off etc.)
He's a cool guy.
She hasn't been sleeping good. Ever been afraid if you go to sleep that you'll die? Guess what I've been feeling that every night I go to sleep since the night I BARELY woke up when I had a shock attack. I almost didn't make it to the kitchen by the time I realized what was happening. Point of black out. Had I not woken up? I never would have. Again. None of my friends understand why I'm so strung out. Unlike my other 'battles' I at least had SOME sort of grip that I wasn't totally helpless. This. I am, and like anyone Storm does NOT like it. CT scan showed nothing, but I still may have smaller then view for CT scan insulinomas.
So Dr. Griffith gets a call, gets the story. He can't do shit I go to USC and have some tests done by order of Dr. McClogan(in which I may be in the hospital for a few days >.<) An get ANOTHER doctor probably. Why do I have to have so many doctors? I do more healthy stuff then half the people in my school! I don't have the mentality to give up. Maybe lay down for abit beaten but thats about it. But if it keeps up with running around in circles I just may.
These shock attacks hurt, and anything that touchs during a shock attack hurts(doing the finger prick thing for blood draw feels like your getting stabbed)
I'm strung out, stressed and depressed. An wishing someones that aren't alive right now I could talk to(I dun wanna stress my mom more then she is. We were crying on the way home as it was.)
Casp is home, turns out All car put dust covers on that were rubing the tires all fixed. An Mathiue[sp] rules. He did an abit over an hours labor for free.(Took apart the front end, took the dust covers off etc.)
He's a cool guy.
