
~just goes and curls into ball~ Today wasn't as good as I thought. Got emailed that I apparently managed to SOMEHOW piss another person off in a span of two days. And its when I'm trying to either a) have fun or b) help/make someone happy.
So I get this email about how I just sat and listened-let this person rant? Well apparently they wanted me to DO something! So they just got upset because I didn't share my 'wisdom' or shtuff. So I'm feeling crappy about that because half the time people just want someone to listen and thats why this person said they wanted. It didn't bother me to much earlier until things just bloody started adding up when I got home and thought of everything I have to do.
I will be pulling an all nighter to get stuff finished for tommorow-Art Center. Its a given. I'm sick, now anxious, and just blah. All in all tallyed up I have 2 maybe 4 hours slee, yes 2-4 hours sleep. I just want to lay down and sleep. But I can't, have to work on this thing since I just managed to get the matte boards yesterday
Monday I get trained for Eaton Canyon, today I'm just not hyped about it anymore. Tommorow I'll be misrable I know it. Sunday I'll be dead from just everyting(but I'll live again). This summers going to be like the last one, I know it at this rate. Constintly sick, misrable and unable to enjoy myself. 2004 was a year I don't want to remember (alot happened that year that was bad) only good thing that year was I made alot of new friends online ;p
Ok its official I've managed to become depressed >.< Lexipro, Trazadone? Looks like I'm back on you ~sighs~