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stormdracona) wrote2007-01-12 02:28 pm
stormdracona) wrote2007-01-12 02:28 pm
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Well the lumps are painful fatty tumors. The one thats giving me problems(they will keep growing in size sadly) can be removed with minor sedation(IE I'm still awake). I am uneasy about being cut into especially while I'm awake even though mostly unawares(its the needles I tell you) but I'm planning to have it removed.
If just to make sure Mr. Egotistical is right thats what it is so if its not he has something to do a biopsy on -.-; Since I refused CAT scan (if its fatty tumors they don't show really) so no point to put myself through that I don't react well to iodine, takes me 3 days for my body to recover(problem with my family anything put in, our body doesn't like to 'let go' of it. Hence sedation even light is hard for us to wake up from. One time I nearly stopped breathing an it was something I didn't even need to be put out(other then anxiety) for 45 minutes on an oxygen tank woo o.O;
But ya thats what that is, I dislike the drugs I was put on by my psychotherapist. Since my depression due to exhastion an not being able to shut down went to the next stage. Something I'm not prone for(which is how we knew I had some problems) I had rage sessions where big things I could shrug off but the smallest most stupid thing would make me want to kill something o.O; So ya I asked for help again. So I'm on a sleep med to help the insomnia an to make my body chill(natural sedative/sleep thing encourages your body doesn't drug you up) is helping but its kicked the 'overdrive' out and the exhastion is kicking in. Hence I've been dizzy and nausated an just slept 14 hours an still am sicker then a dog.
Guh, an teh Lexapro was doubled up on so I can't revert back into everything.
~melts into a pile of goo~ An to top it off, my muse is back from all the fics in the kittchen an I'm trying so hard to write down all the evil little plots down in my brain.
However the meds are working though my 'snapped' state is still in effect. I lately just feel broken. But getting better.
If just to make sure Mr. Egotistical is right thats what it is so if its not he has something to do a biopsy on -.-; Since I refused CAT scan (if its fatty tumors they don't show really) so no point to put myself through that I don't react well to iodine, takes me 3 days for my body to recover(problem with my family anything put in, our body doesn't like to 'let go' of it. Hence sedation even light is hard for us to wake up from. One time I nearly stopped breathing an it was something I didn't even need to be put out(other then anxiety) for 45 minutes on an oxygen tank woo o.O;
But ya thats what that is, I dislike the drugs I was put on by my psychotherapist. Since my depression due to exhastion an not being able to shut down went to the next stage. Something I'm not prone for(which is how we knew I had some problems) I had rage sessions where big things I could shrug off but the smallest most stupid thing would make me want to kill something o.O; So ya I asked for help again. So I'm on a sleep med to help the insomnia an to make my body chill(natural sedative/sleep thing encourages your body doesn't drug you up) is helping but its kicked the 'overdrive' out and the exhastion is kicking in. Hence I've been dizzy and nausated an just slept 14 hours an still am sicker then a dog.
Guh, an teh Lexapro was doubled up on so I can't revert back into everything.
~melts into a pile of goo~ An to top it off, my muse is back from all the fics in the kittchen an I'm trying so hard to write down all the evil little plots down in my brain.
However the meds are working though my 'snapped' state is still in effect. I lately just feel broken. But getting better.